She turned 2 months old today. I have so many thoughts about the last two months and what she has brought to our lives..our sweet baby #3. This has been the most amazing 2 months in all of my (almost) 40 years. As someone who experienced postpartum with baby #2 – I was afraid of falling into that newborn fog. I was afraid of losing a moment because I was feeling inadequate as a mom. So before Sutton came into our lives, I didn’t just physically prepare for her arrival, I mentally prepared for her. I made sure there was no need to feel like supermom. Who the heck is this “supermom” anyway…does she really exist?? I made sure to not wish away her stages and instead embraced those sleepless nights. I took it as an opportunity to make her smile which in turn made me smile. It is an interesting perspective to stare at this little “muppet” and know someday – I will say “I can’t believe you used to be so small”. I made sure there was no need to feel the pressure of losing the baby weight… lets be honest – I never felt skinny, even when I was skinny…so what the heck is the rush??. This body – while far from perfect – has these curves because I was given the incredible gift of pregnancy. A pregnancy I feared would never happen, a pregnancy I fought to have. By the end of these two months as she has started to sleep more throughout the night – I find myself awake, staring in awe at this miracle that has filled our hearts with so much love. Sutton Button I promise I won’t be perfect, I come with faults and make mistakes – but as your mom – one thing is certain – I will love you to the ends of the earth and with all that I have. You will never doubt for one second that you were meant to be ours and we were meant to be yours.
